Guess Who's Back? Back Again?

 
Ahhh... writing. My release! My New Years resolution is definitely not losing weight, eating better, or cutting anything out of my life. Because let's be real, that only lasts for a few weeks anyways.
 
IT IS TO WRITE MORE!! I want to write so often that my fingers will feel lost without a keyboard under them. I want to get the shakes from a lack of writing and possibly join A.W.A. (Addicted Writers Anonymous). After all, my husband keeps asking me very nicely to write my million dollar novel. This endeavor certainly won't happen on it's own. So look out Ernest Hemmingway & Mark Twain.
 
Since my last post, a lot has happened to me. I mean ALOT. Life happened so quickly I think I got whiplash. So I will go ahead and get you up to speed with my life, since I know you are chomping at the bit to know.
 

I Graduated...

 

 
 

 

No not highschool. COLLEGE. I am talking about the real deal here. Not only did I finish highschool, but I attended college for the next FIVE (not four) years after that. I surprisingly did not have the urge to even go to graduation, but still got my diploma. :)
 

I Got A Real Job.....

 
Hold on one second. Okay I'm back. (Sorry, I took a bow).
When I was first hired, I felt like a real person, making a real difference, and earning real money.
 
The difference between school and a real job was only semi-paralyzing. I mean, who misses Spring Breaks, free summers, and your high school body anyways? haha
 

I Got Married......

Yes. I found my Edward, except that he goes by the name Stan. Although he has never seemed to be enticed by the smell of my blood, he has just about every characteristic I could have dreamed for. I really couldn't be happier!
 
First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes..........
 
 
 
 

A Baby in A Baby Carriage!

 
You got it. We are expecting our little blessing on June 29. I am currently 18 weeks along. Pregnancy has not treated me the best, but all of that aside, we are very excited and blessed. :)
 
 
 
 
 
 

Edward: Only Just a Dream

"I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed."

"I hope you enjoy disappointment."

"It’s better if we’re not friends. Trust me."

"Go stop Jessica and Angela before I have to track them down, too. I don’t think I could restrain myself if I ran into your other friends again."

"You really should stay away from me."

"You’re not good for me, Bella"

"Don’t be offended, but you seem to be one of those people who just attract accidents like a magnet. So… try not to fall into the ocean or get run over or anything, all right?"

Edward Cullen? WHAT A JERK!

Okay so maybe these quotations were taken a bit out of context. But really, I am going to get to the bottom of this.

What is it about Mr. Cullen that gets us drooling and suddenly considering the idea that drinking blood and being immortal really wouldn't be that awful? He doesn't exactly have a warm personality. He could decide to end your life any instant and does he even have "real person" feelings?

So what is it? Why is he sooooooo attractive? I am going to try to point out the reasons why he is a potential Mr. Right to a lot of girls despite his sunless face, killer instinct, and dry humor.

"Justine's Edward Theory"

1. Mysterious: He doesn't say a lot, but just enough to keep you interested. If he sat down and told Bella his life story and discussed his feelings all the time, he would be way less attractive.

2. Protective: Most girls like to know that their guy can throw down if push comes to shove. Just one look from Edward sends a group of guys scurrying away like they saw Hulk Hogan lunging toward them with a metal chair. Girls like a sense of security and that usually means knowing her guy could keep her safe. Edward comes to Bella's rescue countless times.

3. Adventurous: Who wouldn't want to climb mountains and trees with their boyfriend (and on his back ta boot)? Or run from a pack of vampires wanting to rip your head off? I know I like a little adrenaline rush every once in a while.

4. Exclusivity: Edward makes Bella feel like she is the only one. He looks her right in the eye and likes spending one on one time with her. He doesn't even look at other women!

5. Showing off: Girls like to know their man is proud to be seen with them. Edward holds Bella's hand in public and was not hesitant to bring her to meet the family.

6. Handsome: The hair, the eyes, even the fangs are attractive on this young fella.

7. Soft and tough side: One minute he is playing a love song on the piano and the next he is ripping off the head of another vampire. A lot of girls like a romantic yet tough guy.

8. Marriage: He mentions marriage before Bella even thinks of it. Surreal. I am going to go ahead and have to call shenanigans on this one. Unrealistic.

9. Respect: Bella wants to get physical, but Edward refuses because doesn't want to hurt her. I call shenanigans on this one too.

I know there are plenty of women out there who do not find this man attractive what-so-ever and maybe they just have a more realistic view of men.

But hey! It's fun to dream isn't it?

Head Over Wheels

Get your motor running.

Head out on the highway.

Lookin’ for adventure

In whatever comes our way....

This song is on automatic re-play in my head whenever I step into my brand new, shiny, smooth-riding car. I like the soft click click-ing noise as I make a left or right to travel to my next destination. I actually don’t mind driving here or there. Hey, you want a ride somewhere? Hop in.

Okay, so maybe my 2008 black Malibu doesn’t turn heads and drop jaws like I think it should when I cruise through town. Maybe hormonal teenagers aren’t even begging me to borrow my car for that long-awaited high school milestone they call Prom.

But one thing I do know is that this new hunk of metal waits patiently in my driveway at my every beck and call. My others did too, but there is something pleasantly different about this one.

My first love was a 1992 silver Infinity. He had a few rattles and dings, but to me he shined like the sun after a grueling dark winter. Like Brad on The Bachelor with all his women, we had a “real connection.” He waited for me faithfully in the high school parking lot day after day through the blistering heat and the frigid cold. He carried me home after late nights and the emotion-filled days of being a teenager. We bonded over a few flat tires, a mud soaked ditch, and a collision into my sister’s Nissan. He was the one. Or so I thought.

The decision for me to go off to college troubled things. We didn’t get to spend as much time together and we were drifting apart. One sad, sad, day….. my dad called me while in the dead heat of Bloomington and broke the news:

“I gave your car to Goodwill,” he said.

A piece of me had been given away for a tax break. That hurt. Time and the transit bus eventually healed things, but I still think of all the good times we had together.

One hopeful day, along came a 2006 interestingly blue Pasat. A rebound if you will, COME ON we all have them.

I didn’t put myself out there as much with this one, for fear of getting hurt again. My relationship with this one remained only surface deep. After leaving me stranded in the freezing cold stadium parking lot, in the middle of a busy intersection, and multiple trips to the service center, he just didn’t seem very trustworthy. It was like he was hiding a rusty secret.

Call me heartless, but I just used that thing. No strings attached. Made it easier that way, ya know. It made it easier when I got the news.

“I’m selling the car,” Dad said.

How was I ever supposed to commit?

“There are other cars in the lot,” people told me. (sigh) Easy for them to say.

Then one day, I got a phone call for a blind date. I was bored and sick of bumming rides so I thought, why not?

He showed up in my driveway and it was love at first sight. We bonded and I think our future together seems pretty bright and promising.

This is my FIRST car in MY name. I make the payments, and I call the shots.

Even though my dad still tells me that I need to "wash that thing" or asks me when the last time I checked my oil was, I have the confidence of knowing that my new love isn't going to be ripped from my life unexpectantly.

Owning a car means responsibility and I'm proud to call it my own.

Welcome to my Blog :)

Most people in the world rub the sleep from their eyes and slowly roll out of bed with a one-track mind. Half-awake, they shuffle to the kitchen and robotically walk to the almost magnetic pull of the gurgling object waiting on the counter. Just the smell that this wondrous machine creates is enough. It’s enough to lessen their desires of crawling back to bed. As they take that first sip and smile, poof! they magically grasp a gleaming sword. After a few cups of this marvelous substance, they become fully clad in protective armor with shield up and lance forward. With a smile on their face and a hop in their step, they are ready to tackle the day and any level of obstacles that may be looming in the midst.

I don’t suffer from that mesmerizing pull coaxing me to the coffee maker yet. But I do have things in my sometimes-confusing life that motivate me to strap my chain mail on and prance forward.

They give me the enthusiasm in life to achieve, persist, and dream. These things keep me going, even when I feel like my roof is collapsing and my walls are tumbling down.

Whether it’s tangible or too wonderful for words, I put them all in a category in which I give a suitable name.

Justine’s Caffeine.